Day 7: Getting through

Sometimes, something small means the most.

I was in the car and my smart shuffle randomly chose this song today. I started bawling like a baby, and it still brings me to tears.

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There was a time, I was runnin’ through hell
Never thought I’d make it out alive
Don’t understand how I cheated death
But I made it to the other side

Oh, why love a girl like me?
Oh, why love a boy like you?
Oh, yeah

I know the ups and downs are strange
(I know, the ups and downs are strange)
You are more than enough, don’t change
(You are more than enough)
Don’t let the demons get you down
You’ll be where nothing can break you
When love is on your side, it’s a beautiful life

There was a time I was willin’ to die
I stopped believin’ in myself
Heaven said, that it wasn’t my time
We found a way for you to help

Ah-ah-ah, ah-ah, save a boy like me
Ah-ah-ah, ah-ah, save a girl like you
Oh, yeah

I know the ups and downs are strange
(I know, the ups and downs are strange)
You are more than enough, don’t change
(You are more than enough)
Don’t let the demons get you down
You’ll be where nothing can break you
When love is on your side, it’s a beautiful life

Oh-oh, oh-oh, yeah, ah
Ah-ah, yeah
Oh-oh, oh-oh, yeah
Ah, yeah

I know the ups and downs are strange
(I know, the ups and downs are strange)
You are more than enough, don’t change
(You are more than enough)

Don’t let the demons get you down
Down, oh yeah
You’ll be where nothing can break you
When love is on your side
When love is on your side, it’s a beautiful life
It’s a beautiful life

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Also I appreciate all the support on this. I am making it. I’m waiting to get an appointment with the oncologist at the cancer center. Still in a bit of pain, but I was prescribed prescription Naproxen, which has been helping. I just want to get the path ahead outlined, you know, and this waiting is the worst part. I don’t really care if it is cancer, just do surgery, get it out, and put me in chemo. At least I can fight it. Right now, I just feel at a loss.

I swear, not knowing is so damn hard. I just want answers, and this is taking far too long.

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Updates on the situation will be continuing to come. I don’t know how much book related stuff will happen on here, but I’m trying to live as normally as I can, despite all this.

I’m editing the first book in the Silken Bonds series as well as the second book in the Legacy of the Phoenix. I hope to release ARCs for both in January at the latest for both of them.

I may be posting a gofundme, because I don’t know how I’m going to make it when I have surgery. I’ll have to be out off work, and I don’t have a lot of sick time or vacation time due to having to take off so much this year with all the other symptoms I’ve been trying to figure out the cause of.

So, I hope you don’t mind these updates. I’ll be emailing them about once a week, along with book stuff if I can come up with the energy for it.

Thank you for being here.